Some of the worst parts of the postpartum depression just feeling like I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want to be bothered by anybody. I was really down on myself about the weight. I couldn't lose the weight. After having my son at 19, I could exercise and lose the weight pretty quickly. And with my daughter, I just felt like nothing was budging no matter what I did. Postpartum depression definitely effected my marriage. I felt like I was stuck at home, and I had this baby, and that's all my life consisted of. It was being unhappy and staying home and taking care of this baby that I love so much, but where was that happiness that you're suppose to feel. I was devastated to think of the concept of having a broken up family. The dynamics of a broken up family forever. My daughter was only 2. My son was 9. He was at an age where I knew how tremendously he was going to be affected. I wanted nothing more than to keep my family together. Then I didn't understand how the marriage was destroying me. I should have filled that script for medication, now that I look back. Gosh, my life would have been so much easier if I had just taken that script to the pharmacy and started, you know, on a anti-depressant. But you just don't know. You feel you can overcome anything and sometimes you just can't.